Author Event: Bay Area Book Fest


Saturday May 4, 2019 @ Civic Center Park in Downtown Berkeley.

Come see me at the Bay Area Book Fest! I’ll be behind the She Writes booth from 2-3:30 p.m. on May 4, but my books will be available for sale at the booth all day for only $5! That is an exclusive discount only for festival goers because I want to celebrate all things books with you. It costs money to get into certain areas of the fest, but my booth will be in the outdoors portion of the festival, which is free to the public. There’s a ton of other free stuff to do at the Bay Area Book Fest including author discussions, live music, and STEM activities for families with kids of all ages. My kids are especially stoked to meet the author of the beloved Ivy & Bean books. See us there! 


“Once You Go In” – Three Weeks Post-Pub

Hello again!

“Once You Go In” is enjoying a solid initial launch thanks to YOU and all your support and kindness for a new author. On the eve of its pub date, I got a call from my publisher saying we’ve sold through the initial print run and need to order a second print run ASAP. That was an exciting moment for me. My goal had always been to sell through my first print run of 1500 at some point in the first few months following launch, but I hadn’t expected to sell through them BEFORE the book’s official release! That’s one big win for me, my publisher, and this new exciting world of indie publishing.

My local launch party was well attended and a fun time (I hope) for all. It was pretty emotional for me to see so many faces in one room who have inspired, challenged, and supported me through the years in this project in one way or another. When addressing the crowd — former bosses, professors, colleagues, students, friends, and family — it finally hit me. I’m an author. And I wouldn’t be one without the people in that room. Writing is so far from the solitary experience people make it out to be. Sure, I typed out the sentences alone, but I wouldn’t have known the mechanics of a sharp sentence without the red edits from my boss at my first newspaper job, and I wouldn’t have captured the intricacies of a Pentecostal girlhood without the late night conversations with friends with shared experiences, and I wouldn’t have the bravery to share my story without a family who cheered me on. I get chills thinking about it still.

Recent Media:

Parenting Forward Podcast with Cindy Brandt 

Soul Science Podcast

Little Faith Podcast 

How Do You Write Podcast

Culturalist: 10 Stories of Religion Gone Wrong

Brit + Co: Must Read Memoirs This Fall

Englewood Review of Books

Relief Journal Review and Excerpt

Essay, Ravishly: “How My Pentecostal Faith Burnt My Life to the Ground”

Yahoo Lifestyle: 7 Memoirs to Read This Fall

A Leap of Doubt Podcast 

Songs For Breaking Free – A Playlist for Once You Go In: A Memoir of Radical Faith

Abusive relationships come in many forms. They can be found in romantic relationships, parental relationships, friendships, the workplace, and for many of us, church. Breaking free is hard work and should be done with therapy and a solid support system. Also, the right playlist can be your best friend. This playlist, “Songs for Breaking Free,” includes songs that have empowered me in my journey to freedom.

1. Best Imitation of Myself, Ben Folds

This song is a fantastic anthem for anyone who has ever changed themselves for someone else (so basically, all of us). Specifically, it’s a song for those of us who have withheld parts of ourselves to belong. How many times have you made yourself smaller for someone else’s sake? Even though I’m strictly from California, I am Folds when his voice cracks with acerbity: Do you think I should take a class/to lose my Southern accent? No Ben Folds, you definitely should not. You be you.

2. Shake it Out, Florence and the Machine

Have you ever tried to dance with a devil on your back? It’s hard to be free when we are weighed down by the shame of our pasts, even after we’ve physically removed ourselves. This song is catchy and repetitive and invites us to truly leave the past in the past. You can’t help but dance when this song is blasting. Florence and the Machine remind us that it won’t be easy or simple, but that there is hope for the future—“It’s always darkest before the dawn.” So shake it off.

3. Quiet, MILCK

MILCK’s “Quiet” went viral in 2017 and became the official ballad of the #metoo movement, and for good reason. It’s all about a woman who finally won’t keep quiet. Part of leaving an abusive situation is this unspoken expectation that we won’t talk about our stories. It’s not nice to malign someone’s reputation, is the message we receive. Well you know what? We are done being nice. We are being loud about the things we have endured for too long. Turn this song up loud when you need some extra motivation to speak your truth.

4. I Try, Macy Gray

One of my first brushes with fundamentalism was the summer I was 13 and gleefully singing this now classic R&B song in the back of a church minivan. (Yes, this was back in 2000.) My youth pastor chastised me for singing a “secular song” and told me to stop singing. I had no idea what “secular” meant but I didn’t question the rules. I wish I had the gumption then to keep singing. No regrets though—I make up for it now by belting out this song with all I have. This song is for anyone who has struggled to leave a person or a group of people that has been all wrong for them.

5. Silver Springs, Fleetwood Mac

I basically became a woman to this song, sitting alone in a fogged up car the day after Christmas at age 16, waiting to meet up with the boy who would soon break my heart. I was knee-deep in fundamentalism and had nearly forgotten who I was underneath all the shame and repression and rules. This song is the perfect “get out of a rut” song because it begins sweet and warbling—just like the sweet and warbling mask women are expected to wear—and slowly builds to this angry crescendo, inviting listeners to right every wrong we’ve ever politely endured. By end of the song, Nicks unleashes the strong, fierce woman that is inside all of us. The boy she’s so sad about at the beginning of the song? By the end, she’s literally going to haunt him forever. If you are out of touch with that inner witch, put this one repeat.

6. Watching the Wheels, John Lennon

I’d be remiss to not include John Lennon, as the Beatles were probably the most crucial band for me in finding freedom from toxic religion. This song especially. I spent my teen years in fear of a metaphorical slippery slope. I was taught that all these bad things would happen to me if I no longer lived my life according to evangelicalism’s value set. Looking back, this was all about control—the mark of an abusive relationship. When I began to make choices that went against their grain, they came at me their prescribed advice and warnings—“to save me from ruin.” This line speaks to anyone leaving an abusive system: When I say that I’m OK, well they look at me kind of strange/Surely you’re not happy now, you no longer play the game?

I steal my response from Lennon: I just had to let it go.

7. One Wild Life, Gungor

It’s not always easy to break free from a toxic system or person. Once you leave, your work has only begun. Often the deluge of feelings can be overwhelming. After all, you’ve repressed them for so long—they’ve had all that time to build up. Sometimes the feelings can be so powerful they may leave you weak and willing to return to the abuse you worked so hard to leave. I love this song because it embraces the spectrum of human feelings as beautiful. Feelings are not to be feared, even the hard ones. With a frothy electronic background, Gungor asks: What will you do with your one wild life? Brave the rise and fall/Go on and feel it all/Love the rise and fall/I want to feel it all.

8. Holy War, Alicia Keys

When I was leaving fundamentalism, I listened to Alicia Keys nonstop because she cut through it all to speak to my soul in the way I needed. With a voice like medicine, Keys imagines a world where we put down our walls and live a life without fear. It’s easier and “safer” to build borders than it is to keep ourselves open, but the consequences of that life is being locked in. Locked in is exactly how I felt all those years, and breaking free was the hardest and best thing I’ve ever done. Sing along—Forgiveness is the only real revenge.

9. Break Free, Ariana Grande

At first listen you might think this is just a tune for getting everyone on the dance floor (because it does exactly that), but it’s so much more. This is an empowering song for anyone who is finally getting out. Ariana Grande sings with grit in only the way a woman who has had enough can. The chorus is unbelievably catchy: This is the part when I say I don’t want ya/I’m stronger than I’ve been before/This is the part when I break free/Cuz I can’t resist it no more. It’s important to listen to upbeat songs when breaking free—not just all sad ballads, though there is a place for those too—because we need reminders of how much better our lives are now.

10. Don’t Play That Song (You Lied), Aretha Franklin

A force for the women’s movement and civil rights movement in the 1960s and 70s, Aretha sings for anyone who needs R-E-S-P-E-C-T. I love this lesser-known song in particular because of the conflicting emotions it captures. Sometimes we have to walk away from someone we still love. Leaving may not stop us from loving them right away, and the voices that want to draw us back might continue for some time. In this song, the “voices” are literal background singers who follow up with Aretha’s cry “You lied!” with “Darling, I love you.” We can’t shut those voices up right away, but we can shout at the metaphorical DJ to not play the song that reminds us of our pain. In time, it will hurt less. Until then, sing along with Aretha because she gets it.

11. Teen for God, Dar Williams

I had never heard this song until I had a radio interview with a lovely local public radio host who told me that she had this song on repeat as she read my book. She played it for me in the studio that day and I felt it so hard. Since then, I’ve had it on repeat myself. Teen for God is about an adolescent girl at summer camp, desperately trying to fit in and tame her wild heart and follow all the rules. If you’ve ever been there, sing along with the rest of us.

There are just a few examples from “Songs for Breaking Free” playlist. Check out Spotify for the full song list. Do you have a song that has helped you break free? Tag @carlygelsinger on Instagram or Twitter to join in and get your “breaking free” song featured.

 

 

 

Dec 6: Book Talk and Signing at Colfax Public Library

Join me on December 6 at 4:30 p.m. at the Colfax Public Library to discuss “Once You Go In” in the town the memoir takes place. Books will *not* be sold at this event, but I will be doing a giveaway as well as signing any copies you may already have. Also, the book is available through the Placer County Library system, so you reserve a copy through them if you are a library cardholder.

ONCE YOU GO IN: One Month Away!

Hello again!

It’s now the final countdown for the release of “ONCE YOU GO IN: A Memoir of Radical Faith” and my nerves are on hyperdrive. Those of you who have pre-ordered through Amazon should be receiving your books in the next two weeks (yes, Amazon fulfills pre-orders early).

My official launch party is Oct. 25 at Bella Viva in Gilroy, Calif. Please RSVP if you plan on coming so I know how much wine to buy. If you plan on attending this party and have not purchased the book yet, I gratefully ask that you wait for the event to buy, as Barnes & Noble will be selling books for me and I want to make sure it is a satisfactory night for them so I can keep up the good relationship I’ve built with them.

I’ve been busy talking about the book in any spaces I can. I recently appeared on Your Atheist Pastor Podcast (Episode 319) and Heathen Podcast. It’s been super fun to have conversations with these clever and deep-thinking hosts, and I’ve got several more exciting podcast appearances that I can’t announce yet… but stay tuned!

The book was included in Refinery29’s list of Best Books To Read If You’re Obsessed with Cults and She Read’s roundup of Books To Read After the Handmaid’s Tale. Kirkus gave me a wonderful review and included me in their August 15 magazine.

WHERE TO FIND ME:

  • Central Coast Writers Conference, Sept 27-29. I’ll be leading workshops, speaking on panels, and signing books.
  • Launch Party, Oct 25. Details above.
  • Barnes & Noble Gilroy, November 24, 12 p.m-2 p.m.  I’ll be signing books at the front of the store.
  • Colfax Library, December 6, 4:30 p.m. I’ll be speaking and signing books.

Thank you for all your help in pre-ordering, requesting the book from your local library, and sharing my posts on social media. All of these things help so much. The books are on their way from the printers so it won’t be long before I hold the real deal in my hands.

Until then,

Carly

 

 

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